Headed to the Big Apple tomorrow. Wow. As I’m sitting here packing I’m overflowing with all kinds of emotions. Excited to spend the summer in the city. Nervous to be on my own in such a big place. Overwhelmed, it was less than a week ago I was packing to leave Providence and come home and now I’m packing again to leave home and go to New York! Things are moving crazy fast, and as we know – life waits for no one! All I know is that I better get a little pep in my step if I want to make it in the big city! But there’s one emotion I didn’t mention – which is what I’ve been feeling the most lately; Fear.
For most who know me, you might think that’s a little strange, but its not – I feel like its only natural. In everything I do – I do it with confidence and fearlessness – everything do. I’m a risk taker! Taking a chance and going to an Ivy League school. Leaving home to go to college 6 hours away from home when I had never been away from home for more than 2 weeks! Deciding to play Lacrosse in college rather then basketball, when basketball was the love of my life. And spending a summer in Atlanta, but at least I had some friends and family. But there’s something different about this move, something I can’t quite put my finger on. I mean, my life, as I know it could change forever because of this one summer! That’s a little scary don’t you think?
I think the biggest thing I fear is uncertainty. A new home, new friends, new job, new lifestyle – shaping my future when I’m not even sure of it myself. I don’t know what to expect. Am I going to like the city life or will I absolutely hate it? How, where, will I meet new people and make new friends? My job, will I like the company, the people, and the actual work – because this could be a place that becomes a major part of my life. Living in a place that is so different from anywhere else I’ve ever lived. Subways, busses, millions of people, blocks and blocks, monuments and sky scrapers; the city that never sleeps. Now I’ve been to New York many times before, but I’m sure that we can all agree that living somewhere is a completely different thing.
Its important that when we embark on new journeys in unfamiliar territories that we keep perspective. We can’t let fear inhibit our goals and dreams. Can’t let it deter us from being ambitious and accomplishing the things we were intended to do. The best leaders in life are those who didn’t run away from fear but rather looked it in the face and took it as a challenge. Don’t’ play it safe, take it to the next level, be better today than you were yesterday. Never settle, don’t become complacent. If you don’t take away anything else from my rant about my nerves this summer, remember this:
“If you want something you’ve never had, you must do something you’ve never done.”
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